Sweet memories

Today is the 5th anniversary of the day my son Dylan went to be with Jesus. It was the first and last time we held him. It was obviously a sad day but when I look back on it I am so blessed to have had that moment, those 5 days with such a cutie. Sometimes I speculate if we did the right thing or should we have fought for him longer. I also wonder what would life be now if he had lived! Certainly different from the life we have now.

Olivia is running around playing with a belt that has been a swimsuit, rocket ship, princess sash and other things as well. I said hold on mommy is writing about dylan. She said I miss my brother Dylan but he lives in heaven. Hearing that is something that I never could imagine 5 years ago. Wow! Life takes some awesome turns!

When I think that others have also lost loved ones be it a baby or someone who lived a long life, I think of the things that got me through some really sad days. Zoloft: it really pushed me through hards days but most importantly Jesus. In the Bible Jesus "Come unto me you who are heavy burden and I will give you rest!" I held onto that and continue to do so. Last night I was a little teary and Olivia said "Mommy its ok!" and then she said "Are you happy now?" She can be very empathetic!

Remember its ok!