Calgon. . .

Well you know the rest! I am feeling super overwhelmed by life and in particular my children. With sickness for the last 2 weeks, I have been the most popular person in my house! Now I would have loved to be popular in high school, college or even in my jobs but not now! Olivia wants me to hold her and Ava cries. So I pick up Ava and Olivia cries! GRRRR! Is it bad that I just want to be alone to sleep or watch TV or even play on the computer ALL FREAKING DAY LONG!

Jim is in California and his colleague that he was paling around with left so he is all alone and lonely. I told him to enjoy the silence and the leisure for me! I swear I finally get a minute to take a nap while both girls are sleeping and 10 minutes later one of those little angels wakes up! When does Mommy get a break!

Now just to be fair to my girls and remind myself of how happy I am to have them in my life I will now focus on my little boy Dylan. Dylans birthday is coming up on March 3. He would have been 4. (Stopping to wipe tears away.) I so wanted him to live but 5 days later he died. My dear friend who lost beautiful twin girls Emma and Olivia always remind each other that when our children are driving us crazy this is what we longed for! We've had the alternative and the hectic pace of the pitter patter of little feet is so much better!

So now that I've had a good cry and reminded myself that no matter how little sleep I get or alone time that I am so lucky to be a mommy to the cutest girls in the world I will adjourn this pity party! Because my Olivia and Ava are miracles to even be here and causing so much darn trouble! LOL!