Give them all to Jesus. . .

KLEENEX ALERT! (just wanted to warn you that I cried as I wrote this!)

I remember a song from my childhood that went "Give them all to Jesus, shatter dreams, wounded hearts and broken toys. And HE will turn your sorrows into joy!

This post tonight is more for me but I hope its the thing you need to hear today. Tonight I was watching a medical show. There was a lady who had flipped out and the staff was trying to figure out why. After 45 minutes of the show they figure out that she had a son who died of cancer. They talked about when she held him as he died. It brought back the bittersweet moments of my son Dylan's last day on earth. I am not even sure how long it was that we held him as he passed away. Of course we had lots of tears and a little bit of laughter. It was such an intense beautiful moment with a true angel.

I am a little surprised how much I cried tonight because it has been over 5 years. But I think the thing that got to me is how much I love my girls. I didnt know you could love so intensely. I mean even when they are acting crazy or crying all the time (like Ava did today!) I want to take the time to hug and kiss them everyday. I remember kissing that baby boy. They were definitely some of the sweetest kisses ever. I was definitely touched by that angel.

The beauty of that special moment keeps coming back every once in a while. I think to remind that we have a HOPE in JESUS that one day we will see Dylan again and even more importantly we will be with JESUS!

Back to the title of this post, the LORD has certainly turned my sorrow into joy in ways that I couldnt even imagine!

Sorry if you are teary now! Tears are healing too! Mom and Dad thank you! I love you!